I'm Doing Me...

Sometimes it's so easy to get caught up in everyone else's life. Depending on one's personality, it can be very detrimental to their health mentally and physically as well as emotionally.

I have had some very important conversations these last few days with some extraordinary women who have helped me switch gears in my mind. I have been thinking a lot about ME. May sound selfish to some, but if you know me at all, you're probably thinking...it's about time. That's right, it's time to do me for a while.

I find it to be very interesting that the person mentioned most in the Bible second to Jesus is David. He wasn't exactly what we would call 'a model citizen.' He was a die hard sinner to the core. The Bible refers to David as 'A Man After Gods Own Heart' though. I have felt very encouraged by Davids story recently. I am in no way perfect and I do not claim to be. I have many, many flaws and have met many that like to point them out to me. The thing I find to be most interesting, is the fact that David had many, many flaws as well. God still chose to use him for big things, and all the while he was screwing up in big ways!!

It's so easy to get down on yourself and begin to feel defeated. My neighbor said to me..."Cut yourself some slack Tara." I really needed to hear that, and I really need to do it. I'm doing my best and that's all I can do. This life is a gift from God. It wasn't given to us so that we could dedicate it to someone else. He wants us to have free hearts. Free to be happy, free to love, and free to make mistakes.

Every choice we make is followed by a lesson. Some lessons are quick and easy while others are long and painful. We can grow from them both, if we so choose. Now, while I have the world by the tail...I'm doing me the best way I know how.

In the book of Genesis 5:24 it talks about Enoch. This is my life verse.
"Enoch walked with God; and he was not, for God took him."

I don't believe it can get any clearer than that. Enoch was not anything spectacular. He was just a man. I believe when it says 'he walked with God' it means that he had a relationship with Him, that we do our best. This is all God asks of us, that we stay close to Him. God was so pleased with Enoch's 'best' that He spared him death. What an amazing gift! Is it really that simple?