Sunday, January 16, 2011

I Just Want To Use Your Love...

For some reason, every time I get in my car I hear the song "Your Love" by The Outfield. I love the song, always have. Takes me back to my video game playing Grand Theft Auto days haha Anywho, I started to really listen to the lyrics and at first I was like, geesh, what a jerk!! Then as I listened I thought, an honest person. Not something you can come by easily in this life. Harry Truman once said, "They call me give 'em hell Harry. All I do is tell them the truth and they say it's giving 'em hell." Have always loved that statement. How true Harry...we can't handle the truth.

There is just something refreshing about BRUTAL honesty upfront. Not...I know I'm gonna get caught honesty or it's about time to be honest honesty. Someone who will look you in the eye and give it to you straight in the first few moments of your getting acquainted period. It's risky, but what a thrill. It can be so refreshing to walk away and not have to play the analyze that game. It doesn't always feel good, but I promise you, that you will respect that person.

It is true what they say about good eye contact. I love to look people in the eyes. If I look away it means I am uncomfortable with the subject or the person. Body language is also a dead give-a-way. The lean says it all, did they lean in or away? I am not talking about romance here. I am talking about understanding people. Not everyone is going to look at you and say..."quit touching me, and back up!" Stop the insanity!! haha Give people their space and know how to recognize when they really, truly want you in it. This is true in life, love and the elevator. ;)

Don't make promises, plans, pottery or anything else that can be broken.

Okay...my thoughts for the night, take them, leave them, lean in or away. I just want to USE your love tonight...it's that simple.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

2011??

At this point I have no idea what to expect with another year. All I know is, I am ready for some breathing room. I'm not one for New Years resolutions, but as far as this years concerned I have to clean anything bad out of my life. If something or someone makes me feel bad...it's gone. I was amazed at how many things made that list. Some were hard to let go, but after I did it...ahhhhh,what a feeling!!

My soul has been dormant for far too long and it longs to be awakened. Sometimes you meet someone who knows exactly how to do this for you. I won't call them a soul mate because that kind of thinking is very illogical. They are more like a kindred spirit. I love the line Owen Wilson gives Rachel McAdams in Wedding Crashers... "your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another." Now, that's what I'm looking for. May be a crap shoot, but it makes sense.

Right now I am LOVING the fact that I actually know who I am and what I want. I also know who I am NOT and what I DON'T want. I am blessed to have good *mature* friends that love me. I have learned to laugh at my circumstances. That is an art by the way because if you don't know how to laugh you will for sure cry. I DON'T cry so I have to release it somewhere.

My dating life is still a book with each boy claiming his own chapter. I say boy because...well...I have yet to meet a man. haha It can all be filed under life experience though and I am thankful for each one of them. They all played a part in showing me what I don't want or deserve.

2011 will be a year of breathing in and out, feeling healthy, smiling back at myself in the mirror every morning, enjoying the 'Salt Life' that I have grown so fond of and accepting that 30 is not old. I leave for Mexico next month and that's just the beginning of my adventures. There's a story here and I want my grandchildren to one day say..."she was a CRAZY woman who sucked every drop out of life, leaving no stone unturned, always letting her long dark wild hair down to blow in the breeze." Yep, put it on my tombstone. hahaha Happy New Year, may its juices run down your chin!!