At this point I have no idea what to expect with another year. All I know is, I am ready for some breathing room. I'm not one for New Years resolutions, but as far as this years concerned I have to clean anything bad out of my life. If something or someone makes me feel bad...it's gone. I was amazed at how many things made that list. Some were hard to let go, but after I did it...ahhhhh,what a feeling!!
My soul has been dormant for far too long and it longs to be awakened. Sometimes you meet someone who knows exactly how to do this for you. I won't call them a soul mate because that kind of thinking is very illogical. They are more like a kindred spirit. I love the line Owen Wilson gives Rachel McAdams in Wedding Crashers... "your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another." Now, that's what I'm looking for. May be a crap shoot, but it makes sense.
Right now I am LOVING the fact that I actually know who I am and what I want. I also know who I am NOT and what I DON'T want. I am blessed to have good *mature* friends that love me. I have learned to laugh at my circumstances. That is an art by the way because if you don't know how to laugh you will for sure cry. I DON'T cry so I have to release it somewhere.
My dating life is still a book with each boy claiming his own chapter. I say boy because...well...I have yet to meet a man. haha It can all be filed under life experience though and I am thankful for each one of them. They all played a part in showing me what I don't want or deserve.
2011 will be a year of breathing in and out, feeling healthy, smiling back at myself in the mirror every morning, enjoying the 'Salt Life' that I have grown so fond of and accepting that 30 is not old. I leave for Mexico next month and that's just the beginning of my adventures. There's a story here and I want my grandchildren to one day say..."she was a CRAZY woman who sucked every drop out of life, leaving no stone unturned, always letting her long dark wild hair down to blow in the breeze." Yep, put it on my tombstone. hahaha Happy New Year, may its juices run down your chin!!
I don't think anyone who knows you could say that you don't have an extreme zest for life. I know that one thing I admire and even envy a bit is how so many people want to know you and want others to know that they know you. Even on facebook - I bet there are very few statuses where you don't have a minimum of five comments.
ReplyDeleteI know that I am one of the people who is so happy that you want to be my friend - sort of out of my league and I think 2011 is going to be a wonderful year and I'm glad you're letting some people go. Maybe it will make room for more wonderful people to come in.
I love you so much. Ruth Berry, you have no idea.
I probably won't live long enough to see that on your tombstone (for your sake, I hope I don't - lol), but I hope it's there in the far distant future. Live your life, Tara. Every day!
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